the end

tomorrow, back to the real fray. i keep forgetting that this weekend stuff is just entertainment - no matter how hard we work, how much we mess up, how much time we do or don't put into it, it's all going to amount to a two-hour show that most people are eventually going to forget. but i guess all the work and worrying are really for the few people who won't forget it for a long time. i want all of them to have a good time, and i want all of them to do well and look good. despite my aversion to tart-like behavior, i don't want ANYone to fall flat on her face, say anything stupid in a tongue-tied moment, lose their marbles backstage. i want it to be good for everyone, so good that they want to come back and make it good for someone else.

but, as i was saying, i need to get back into the more important groove tomorrow. gave myself a short week, so i should be able to throw myself into it 100 percent. can i get to work before 7.30 tomorrow morning even if i don't "have to"? did i remember to do everything i was supposed to do this weekend? how many hours of sleep will i get tonight? damn, i have about 16 library books to return, a thousand lesson plans to generate, 20 million things to remember. i like being hyperbolic, it makes me feel extra-productive when i cross everything off my list.

but then, when does that ever happen?