and that's a wrap

it's early, but i'm gearing up for week 15, which i've been looking forward to since week 1. i have a feeling it's going to be a long five days. i just have to figure out something to look forward to for each of those days, so i can make it through to dec. 3.

i have mixed feelings about the end ... for one thing, it's not really the end because i'll be back in jan. ... therefore, i don't feel like i'm really leaving anything, i just feel like i have forty thousand things to do in the span of five days before i earn a three-week breather.

though our relationship has definitely improved, i don't think i will miss my c., even a little. we're just that different. i will never forget the day i rushed in and described a car accident i saw in the intersection near the school ... a car had gotten pretty well banged up trying to make a left turn, and my c. just kind of snorted and said, "well, that was his fault for trying to make that turn." not a shred of concern for the lives involved. [and weeks later, i get a huge lecture about compassion in the workplace because i have the "gall" to question policy?]

nor will i forget the report card "tutorial" she gave me just the other week ... we were working on grades for a kid she pretty much hates, and she looked in her grade book and saw that he had earned an A for art. so she goes, "let's give him a B."

or the time we were doing student council rep elections and this boy won by about double the votes of the runner-up, but she lied to all the kids and gave it to the runner-up because for no real reason at all, she didn't want the acual winner to represent the class. what a splendid example of how democracy works.

i don't mean to make it sound like all i learned was what not to do. but working side-by-side with my c. has on more than one occasion made my heart literally hurt, like that feeling of someone squeezing you from the inside, when you know something is so wrong but you can't do anything about it.

i've long since decided that the Boss is full of crap, but it's enough for me to be sure that someday he'll look back in what he did and realize he was damn lucky that i (or my mom, who is LIVID over the issue) did not go to district about his actions. again, it's not that i wanted to screw over my c. but i know what's right, the (not my) Boss knows what's right, and the fact that he sat me down and barked at me about not knowing "where i come from" and "the way we do things here" and "compassion" - so far everyone at this school has such a f*cked up concept of "compassion" (for instance, my c. thinks you lack compassion if you neglect to say "good morning, boys and girls" despite the fact that you've been conversing with them all morning while she's had her back to them) that i really, really can't take it too personally that the Boss thinks i lack it.

so, into the final week it is ... one nice thing about working with people who are stupid enough to assume i am stupid enough to get screwed over quietly is that once they figure out i'm not so quiet, all they can do is fire me or make the remainder of the way as smooth as possible for all involved. hint: they can't fire me. so while it'll be a long week, it should be relatively uneventful as far as admin is concerned.

t-minus 5 ... yaay.